Musings and Snoozes

A very personal journey

on March 31, 2014

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So, the fruition of several years of umming and ahhhing occurred today and I now finally have a beautifully tattooed arm. The pain was very minimal, with only a couple of meep moments, but otherwise I actually quite enjoyed it! I’ve had an afternoon fuelled by endorphins and adrenaline, but now I’ve calmed down a bit, I’m a little more reflective….

You see lots of people have asked me if my tattoo means anything special, and for the most part I’ve said no, but it’s not strictly true. Firstly, anyone who was involved in mine and Jon’s wedding will know how important leaves and the forest in general are to me, so it’s been in my mind for years that I wanted something to represent this, so that’s where the twisty vine and leaves come in. If I couldn’t legally get married under a tree in the woods then I was damn well going to do something to represent my leafy love!

And then there’s the tattoo placement itself. This is a bit more personal and something I thought long and hard about. It’s been nearly 10 years since I consciously made the decision to stop self harming and there have been several moments during that time that resisting has been pretty hard. Thankfully in the last few years the need has almost disappeared, but I’m conscious that no matter what, it will always inevitably be at the back of my mind when things get tough. However now I have a beautiful tattoo on my arm, I will only ever have to look at that to remind myself how far I’ve come 🙂

From scars to beauty in ten years, and you know what? I’m a pretty strong, brave and pleased lizard right now.

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